No Regrets

I know that i should care and take advice,

I told myself that i was done and that i was not returning.

Those little words she uttered made it all come back,

Why I wanted to be that person, why I still pray.

  

I’m just standing and thinking not laying, not walking but sitting.

 I chase the world that I have nothing to offer me.

I’m looking for something, (I think) but have not found the map that will lead me to it.

I feel like a lost cause, where’s my effect?

I’m told regrets are little ways to teach me life lessons,

I’ve been learning for too long, unh?

My anguish just seems to get longer with the years I add on,

I’ve become bitter and confused at the same time

I tend to laggard around my accomplishments

And appealed to my incompetence

That might be my regrets but I won’t let it linger.

You Always

I just hate how you ruined everything for me, and then try to give me advice. Who the hell are you to tell me what to do! You come here once in while and want to be the bigger sibling; but you forgot that you walked out on us years ago. You always make me feel like shit when you’re around. Yeah, I may be 17 and immature, but that just me. Don’t you forget when you were 17 and acting like you were 25.  I know my age. Now you want to care…it’s too late for that.

I REALLY DON'T KNOW

I really don’t know anymore, I tried to be this person everybody expect of me; but then I again I really don’t know what they want. (OK I HAVE AN IDEA.) I just really feel bad about myself sometimes! I’m fucking 17 and I have to wait for shit to be done for me. I have to wait for the parent’s approval to have a cell phone, do things my way. I’m just sick and tired of the controlling!!!! I DON’T EVEN KNOW…………….. I JUST WANT TO BE ME AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT SHIT…. IREALLY DON’T KNOW ANYMORE AND THAT’S WHAT SUCK!

Culture

The way how the world impacts my life is very hard to explain. I get so emotional just thinking about, the different things I could do to make it a better place for me. Learning about distant cultures can be a blessing and burden. It’s a blessing to find out things you could never dream about. The burden comes from not being able to do anything about it. (Being a teenager there’s not much to do about your dreams till you grow up. HAHA!!) Culture comes from different angles and just smashes in my face. It could come from: Art, music, literature, food, people, and many more. The point is, in our everyday lives we will be indulge in culture, we as people need to come together find it before it finds us. Ignorance is not bliss!

Just A Thought

  

I can take up a whole notebook and write about my problems,

but when I put on my favorite song, it’s 

erased by the beat, the emotion the artists, 

and the overall feeling of my strong willed self. Thanks to 

 music I can stay sane.